The time counts down, and one more year is said farewell to. I look at 2008 as a year of growth for me.
1. I’ve grown in my faith
2. I’ve grown in my on-air presence and feel
3. I’ve grown a little more in the perfection of my production skills
4. I’ve grown in getting involved with the community I live in
5. I’ve grown in relationships with co-workers, good friends, and my new church family
6. I’ve grown in my patience
7. I’ve grown a little in my impatience (not good, I know)
8. I’ve grown to test new strengths I never knew really existed
9. I’ve grown in the hips just a tad bit
10. I’ve grown to understand that some places in this country can’t stand change and are even fearful of it
11. I’ve grown in my comedic “performances” and “tendencies” in front of groups
12. I’ve grown to love who I am a little more
13. I’ve grown in my cooking skills
14. I’ve grown to realize I will always be growing
As the year 2008 comes to a close, I still have a couple of irritations nipping at my heals. Today, a day that should be some-what happy, was a day of me wanting to punch or kick the co-host in the shins. I’ve told myself to try and understand him when he doesn’t see eye-to-eye with me on ideas---not everyone agrees on everything. That’s where the saying, “Let’s agree to disagree” came from (which for some odd reason the co-host hates btw). But I’ve begun to realize, at times, that it’s not that the co-host not seeing eye-to-eye with me, but it’s the co-host not wanting to agree if it’s not his way. He enjoys new ideas…if they’re his. He’s fine and happy with change…if it’s change for him. He’s cool with new people…if they put him on some-what of a pedestal. He may be upset at the fact that he’s not at a bigger station by now in his radio career, but he’s even more upset that I have a 99% chance of leaving this area in the next year or so to pursue bigger things. The more I see these things boil over and be shown in the light of day, the more I become irritated, impatient, and upset. I understand that I shouldn’t be judging others or pointing fingers, especially at someone who I do give credit to to helping me with some of my on-air skills, but it’s hard to ignore some of this stuff. Maybe it’s harder because it’s all coming from the co-host, the guy who’s suppose to be part of the team, the guy who can be a friend at times, the guy who I’m suppose to look to for help at this station.
The trigger, you may wonder, was my idea of doing my midday shift as a Live Request Lunch time. I’ve been wanting to do this for a good 10 months or more, and have thrown the idea towards the co-host about 3 times. And every time I’ve gotten the same response, “Well, let me talk to the boss jr. about it, because I think we should get it sponsored first.” After months of hearing nothing back, I decided to give it a shot one more time, and was even tempted in going above his head and going to the boss jr. with the idea. I went against that thought and went straight to the co-host one last time—yesterday. This time, I kind-of made him talk more about it, but it was as if he was trying to come up with every single excuse in the book to why I should forget the idea, and if I wanted to get the Live experience, then do my Saturday shift Live. He agreed to talk to the boss jr., and I asked him today if he did it. He did say he talked to him, but once again brought up the stupid sponsor thing. I just felt like I should throw up my freakin’ hands and say, “I give up—you are a jerk of a brick wall that will not budge ever, so forget it!” Instead, my dad gave me an idea: get the sponsorship myself. If I work with one of the sales people and find a client who would like to jump on-board, then the co-host has one faulty argument against the idea.
I just want to not only get more of the Live experience, but the big thing for me is connecting more with our listening audience, and maybe make their day a little brighter because they requested and I was able to deliver that one special song. It’s why I love my job, it’s why I love radio, it’s why I would give up some of my nap time for my shift to be Live. All I can do right now is think happy thoughts, pray to the Lord to help me figure out some stuff, and maybe take my dad’s suggestion. Plus, I have started to apply to other radio stations, so who knows what may be in store for the New Year.
Now, I must head to bed, but I must say beforehand—HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Many blessings and Peace for a terrific 2009!
1. I’ve grown in my faith
2. I’ve grown in my on-air presence and feel
3. I’ve grown a little more in the perfection of my production skills
4. I’ve grown in getting involved with the community I live in
5. I’ve grown in relationships with co-workers, good friends, and my new church family
6. I’ve grown in my patience
7. I’ve grown a little in my impatience (not good, I know)
8. I’ve grown to test new strengths I never knew really existed
9. I’ve grown in the hips just a tad bit
10. I’ve grown to understand that some places in this country can’t stand change and are even fearful of it
11. I’ve grown in my comedic “performances” and “tendencies” in front of groups
12. I’ve grown to love who I am a little more
13. I’ve grown in my cooking skills
14. I’ve grown to realize I will always be growing
As the year 2008 comes to a close, I still have a couple of irritations nipping at my heals. Today, a day that should be some-what happy, was a day of me wanting to punch or kick the co-host in the shins. I’ve told myself to try and understand him when he doesn’t see eye-to-eye with me on ideas---not everyone agrees on everything. That’s where the saying, “Let’s agree to disagree” came from (which for some odd reason the co-host hates btw). But I’ve begun to realize, at times, that it’s not that the co-host not seeing eye-to-eye with me, but it’s the co-host not wanting to agree if it’s not his way. He enjoys new ideas…if they’re his. He’s fine and happy with change…if it’s change for him. He’s cool with new people…if they put him on some-what of a pedestal. He may be upset at the fact that he’s not at a bigger station by now in his radio career, but he’s even more upset that I have a 99% chance of leaving this area in the next year or so to pursue bigger things. The more I see these things boil over and be shown in the light of day, the more I become irritated, impatient, and upset. I understand that I shouldn’t be judging others or pointing fingers, especially at someone who I do give credit to to helping me with some of my on-air skills, but it’s hard to ignore some of this stuff. Maybe it’s harder because it’s all coming from the co-host, the guy who’s suppose to be part of the team, the guy who can be a friend at times, the guy who I’m suppose to look to for help at this station.
The trigger, you may wonder, was my idea of doing my midday shift as a Live Request Lunch time. I’ve been wanting to do this for a good 10 months or more, and have thrown the idea towards the co-host about 3 times. And every time I’ve gotten the same response, “Well, let me talk to the boss jr. about it, because I think we should get it sponsored first.” After months of hearing nothing back, I decided to give it a shot one more time, and was even tempted in going above his head and going to the boss jr. with the idea. I went against that thought and went straight to the co-host one last time—yesterday. This time, I kind-of made him talk more about it, but it was as if he was trying to come up with every single excuse in the book to why I should forget the idea, and if I wanted to get the Live experience, then do my Saturday shift Live. He agreed to talk to the boss jr., and I asked him today if he did it. He did say he talked to him, but once again brought up the stupid sponsor thing. I just felt like I should throw up my freakin’ hands and say, “I give up—you are a jerk of a brick wall that will not budge ever, so forget it!” Instead, my dad gave me an idea: get the sponsorship myself. If I work with one of the sales people and find a client who would like to jump on-board, then the co-host has one faulty argument against the idea.
I just want to not only get more of the Live experience, but the big thing for me is connecting more with our listening audience, and maybe make their day a little brighter because they requested and I was able to deliver that one special song. It’s why I love my job, it’s why I love radio, it’s why I would give up some of my nap time for my shift to be Live. All I can do right now is think happy thoughts, pray to the Lord to help me figure out some stuff, and maybe take my dad’s suggestion. Plus, I have started to apply to other radio stations, so who knows what may be in store for the New Year.
Now, I must head to bed, but I must say beforehand—HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Many blessings and Peace for a terrific 2009!
